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2009- Reflections

I can’t believe this year is coming to an end! It’s crazy.

I usually take some time to just reflect on what I’ve done this year (ok, this isn’t just regulated to the end of a year for me, but this time of year it’s just more prominent in my thoughts.).

This year has been crazy for me. And if you add in fall 2008 (sometimes I think in terms of “school years”) it’s been super crazy. But let’s just stick with 2009…

What have I done in 2009?

  • I was a floor rep for my Council, and then ran and won (due to lack of IMG_1947opposition) for president.
  • Went to Arizona for a leadership conference as a result (seriously, so cool…).
  • Applied to dietetics, and was rejected (sadly) but they fortunately give second chances.
  • Challenged myself and went tree planting for a second time. Learned my limits, physically and mentally weren’t as good as they were my first year planting.
  • Started my presidency at my residence in UBC. This has already taught me so much.
  • Got sick at least three times this year. Not necissarily something I’ve “done” but relevant to health and balance I think. I even had food poisoning for the first (and last hopefully) time.
  • Tried out for a musical. Oh man, was this crazy/fun/insane. It was just a little too far out of my comfort zone. The main problem was people just interested in a, say, chorus roll, had to try out with the people interested in leading rolls. Nerve racking.

There’s been more too, in terms of emotional and social journeys that might be hard to understand for a lot of people. I used to be a shy quiet girl who would watch life from the sidelines, and 2009 has definitely been a year of stopping the wallflower behaviour and really participating in life.

What did I learn as a result?

  • I’m so much stronger than I give myself credit for. This is in terms of emotions, and as a leader. I never knew I could make choices and boss people around the way I do.
  • If I put my mind to it, I can pretty much do anything. I won’t be the best,  but at least I tried right?
  • In the same vein, I’m beginning to learn my boundaries, the line I draw between being too comfortable, and going too far into the wilds of world. If that makes sense. I used to stick so close to comfort zones, now I’m exploring how far I can go.

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Man this year has been crazy! For me anyway, add in all the little things you never think about every day, and really it’s been quite the year.

I’ll see you all in 2010, with some of my goals/resolutions for 2010!

Happy New Years!

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Mental Health 101

Hello all!

My marathon study session continues. Well sort of.

See I’m a horrible student. I can’t do the marathons study sessions, never been good at, hope to never be good at it. I can’t sacrifice my health (physical or mental) for the sake of an A in a class. I get decent grades, I do the work, but hey I like balance.

How Do I keep myself sane during exam periods?

These are some of my favorite random tips I’ve accumulated over the years:

  • Take Breaks: I usually take a break every hour or so. Sometimes it’s 5min. Usually it’s about 20min. And sometimes it’s an hour. 😉 What can I say? Sometimes I really need a break.
  • Exercise. Usually at least one of those breaks is exercising. The past few days it’s been really simple for me; running errands. Going over to the free gym in residence for a treadmill workout, and doing a little yoga. I actually started my day today with exercise.
  • Don’t sweat the small stuff. Sometimes you have to let some other things slide. Don’t feel like doing the dishes? Room a mess? Didn’t quite hit your study quota? Bet you got a lot done anyway! Unless it’s really distracting you, oh well! you’ve got bigger fish to fry.
  • Don’t guilt trip. Ok this one is personal, as has been mentioned before I’m a total stress eater. I’m actually not doing too bad right now. Sure I’ve had some ice cream and a cookie or two, but on the whole? I’m not stressing about it. 🙂 Other things to worry about.
  • Have a plan. I like a plan. I usually make a list of what I’d like to get done; everything from just start time, to exercise, to breaks and what I’m going to study. But I don’t guilt myself if I don’t follow it strictly. Just sort of gives me structure when there really isn’t a lot of structure in my day….
  • Just do it. Sometimes you have no idea how to go about studying for something, and you let the worry get to you. Honestly, sometimes you just have to dive in, and hope the path opens up to you.

Those are the main ways I keep sane anyway. I do think I take too long of breaks, and I probably could have really good grades.

I mean just look at what I’m doing right now? A little procrastination? Maybe…

Alright, I’m back to studying! This has been one super long break. 😉

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Ice Cream Time

Last day of classes done and gone!

My cold is nearly gone!

And the weather has been so nice!

And tonight I’m going to study! Nah. Don’t think so. Though it might happen. Mostly I’m taking this evening to just sort of… do what I feel like without feeling guilty. I don’t have plans to go out, I’m not doing anything big…. Just watching TV and of course enjoying a bowl (or two) of…

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I might write in my journal (pictured above). I used to write in my journal a LOT. Then I got busy. It’s always funny to me how when it’s probably most interesting to really record what’s going on inside, we don’t. That journal was start by yourstruly two years ago Dec 1. Wow. I can’t believe it’s been that long. Oddly enough, I do flip through it, and it’s funny because I totally know what I’m talking about sometimes. Other times, I’m like, what am I talking about?

Either way it’s fun to look back.

My appetite came back tonight, which is nice. Supper was an egg on a bed of brown rice. Sooo good.

Alright, a really intriguing episode of Criminal Minds is on, gotta go!

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Busy Physiology Bee

I’m sorry to have been so MIA lately, school has taken priority in my life, followed closely by destressing though paintball and partying with my best friend from Victoria who came to visit on the weekend.

I can’t believe it’s the final week of classes. Scary thought, since next week I have three finals. One on Wednesday and two on Friday.

I am currently pretty sick too, to add a wrench into the equation. H1N1? Maybe. Probably not though, but definitely the flu. Woke up feeling ok dokie, not my best, but not horrible, only to find myself shivering and warm with a sore throat by the end of my last class.

Oh well. I’m still managing to study; I’ll take it fairly easy the next couple days, get lots of rest, and hopefully be feeling like myself by the weekend. I’m sorry to say I haven’t been photographing my food as of late (it’s all been boring anyway…) but I’ll leave you with some photos I’ve recently taken and really like.

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Hope you’re all having a better day then me!

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Hump Day’s Over!

Hello lovely readers.

Hope you all had a happy hump day!

My eats for the day started with a warm bowl of oatmeal and coffee:
(I ran out of milk with this year 😦 )
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Since I knew I’d be camera shy I took a picture of my lunch before leaving:

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Snack was tea, yogurt with pineapple and chocolate chips
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(Am I the only one who really likes the milk curling up in a cup of tea? I don’t think it does this in coffee…)
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And dinner was leftovers: + a 1/2 tortilia with cheese not picutered:

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Yes that’s a chick lit book, so sue me! I like to enjoy a book that doesn’t involve huge concentration.

Right now I’m enjoying some herbal tea and the other half of that tortilla with some peanut butter and honey. Yum.

Stress Eating

So yesterday I posted about how I was stress eating. It’s not uncommon, it’s nothing new, it’s not unheard of by many of you visiting my site.

But what exactly is it? Why is it that when we feel stress we suddenly feel a need to binge on anything or everything in sight?

Well according to psychology today (a magazine), it comes down to physical responses to stress. Stress is response to something in our environment that we feel threatens our well being. There are physiological responses, and cognitive responses to these stimuli.

From an evolutionary standpoint stress responses came about for survival. We would usually find more energy to deal with the situation once thought to be out of our personal resources. Of course the stressors we originally developed these responses against were not quite the stressors we have these days.

We all have different coping mechanisms for dealing with stress. These can be maladaptive or adaptive. Maladaptive coping strategies don’t help you get rid of the stress. Think stress eating; doesn’t really help you at all does it? Whereas adaptive will help you get to your goal. Say, actually studying for the test.

I really found the psychology today article very informative.

I also took some of the notes from my Sports Psychology class, whilst studying.

And I’ve tried to think of some strategies to use for myself to avoid studying I mean stress eating:

  • Like Liz suggested; chewing gum. This does help, I’ve done it in the past. My problem is I go through gum like no other.
  • Keeping my hands busy. Even if I’m not studying, taking a break but still feeling anxious about something, if I keep my hands busy with something, it definitely helps keep them away from the cookie peanut butter jar.
  • Breath: Put your hand just below your belly button. Take a deep breath, trying to make it reach your hand. Do this three, four times, or until you feel calm. It’s weird, but it works really well.
  • Just Getting It Done. That’s right, just sitting down and getting some work done. This is something I’ve only really started getting the hang of recently, just. Getting. The. Work. Done. That. Is. Stressing. Me. Out.
  • Making a list. It sometimes helps to just write out what’s stressing you. Then write what the worst thing is that can happen. Once you realize how ridiculous some of the things you think are going to happen are, you’ll probably calm down a little.
  • Taking a Break. Sometimes it’s seriously what you need. I know when I start stressing and studying too hard I break, so I make sure I take a break.  Do something you really like; exercise, read a book blogs! Or listen to music or anything that will help.
  • Try not to beat yourself up. This is a big one for me too. I have to make sure I don’t feel guilty not doing other stuff (like working out as much as I’d like to!) that I normally would be able to do. You can’t do everything, get used to it.

Anyway, that’s just some stuff I found that might help you other stressed out students out there. 😀 And just remember sometimes it’s ok to just have some chocolate or peanut butter.

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Tuesday Blues

Hello all!

Wow, what a day. I think the weather hear that today was our first day back at school after a long weekend. It’s so hard to wake up to dark grey  and somber skies. Not my thing. Anyway today my goal was to take pictures of all my food. But in biochem I felt too self conscious to take a photo of my breakfast. :$ Anyone else get like this when they’re taking food photos?

But here are the rest of my eats:IMG_2673

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+ handful carrots.

Preparing Dishes for dinner:

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Yummy fresh rosemary and potatoes. Soooo good.

And of course veggies for roasting:

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In the pan: tofu, eggplant, mushrooms, basil, red pepper and tomatoe. Soaked for an hour in balsamic vinegar and olive oil. Sooo delicious.

I had this (x3!) to make myself go on a run: Dates and peanut putter = love. 😉

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 Then a couple hours later I was eating those potatoes and veggies:

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So good!

Add to that six pieces of Cadbury Dark Chocolate, a sandwich with almond butter and coffee and an apple with pb and you have my whole day.

My run today went fairly well. I am loving my new garmin. It’s amazing. It beeps every kilometer (yeah that’s how I read it here in the great white north, though I always think of pace in terms of miles….). Then I come home and load it up on my computer, and it’s all there, mapped out for me. So cool! I want to learn more about my heart rate and what it means health wise. Damn something to procrastinate with. 😉 Though it would be totally relevant to physiology.

There was one damper on my day. I ate an apple with peanut butter this evening after my supper and a meeting to organize a huge event we have to do tomorrow.

What you say?

Eating an apple and peanut butter a perfectly healthy and legitimate snack, put a damper on your day?

Well yeah, it did. That’s because it was stress eating. Hello, my name is Bronwyn Coyne and I’m a stress eater. Whenever I feel stress I get this weird crunched-time feeling that makes me just want to stuff my face. It’s really annoying because it’s destructive behaviour. When you are under stress, you can cope with good behaviour that helps to alleviate the stress or not-so-good behaviour that really doesn’t help at all (think procrastination vs. just getting that darned essay done, which is which? 😉 ). Having suffered in the past from disordered eating, I know this is just a lay over of that. And believe me, it’s no where near as bad as it once was.

But as I’m going to be beyond stressed for the next couple weeks (think two midterms, essay, group project, HUGE volunteer event before the 23rd!) I need to think of ways to cope with my want to gorge on any food in sight.

But how?

Do you readers have any ideas for how I can stop myself from eating myself into discomfort and more stress?

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